you have made me so angry, honestly.

i hate the way that you're leaning on me

i hate the way that you point out when girls are staring, because you know that i won't do a thing. i hate the context clues you leave out of your writing, because i can't find myself here at all. you know that i hate when you call me wasted, i expect it whenever you call. i guess i'm just down, i guess i'll be honest, i could use you around.

ramble

i don't know, i'm so void of everything lately yet i'm kind of semi happy, i don't really care about anyone and i couldn't really be bothered with anyone. i need someone to rely on, someone who is actually always here, not somewhere else. i don't even care anymore, life.

ladies and gentlemen

taylor york!

i miss you lately, weirdly. i miss spending everyday with you and missing you when you went home. i miss not having to entertain you how you'd just be at my house and do what you wanted, go shopping with my mum or take a bath. i miss sleeping with you most nights and how you were the only person who knew how to spoon me correctly. how we did the same thing every weekend and it never ever got boring, and how in the seven years we've been friends we haven't had one fight except for the time i said i had achne and you went off at me and slept on the lounge and we didn't say goodnight then you crawled into my bed in the early hours and we forgot about it. i remember that one year when we stopped hanging out and you hung out with other people and we didn't talk for maybe 9 months. then i remember when we went on a picnic after 9 months and it was like we never stopped hanging out. i miss our pillow talk and how you know how to make me coffee. i don't know why but lately i miss you more than usual or maybe i'm just being a sook.

weird

really lame, but i miss being happy, and being around people who made me happy, might sound selfish but i'd kill to be actually happy. weird

count

i had this huge blog written full of apologies about being an awful person this year and i deleted it. quite honestly i've been awful and i don't know why anyone has put up with me, i'm not making any promises but i am going to try and be a decent friend from now on.