shadow feet.

i've never been religious, never believed in it, never wanted to learn anymore about it than the standard primary school knowledge. but when i hear people preach about "god" and everything to do with religion part of me feels somewhat jealous. jealous that these people seem to have something in their life that they know they can always rely on to be there when things get rough. that these people feel they have someone they can turn to when they need help, someone who seems to make everything okay. it seems like people with strong religious beliefes never have any doubt or feelings of being unsafe because they have someone looking out for them and someone to keep them safe. i'm not saying i now beleive in god, or want to be religious because i don't, there are 12 religions i would choose over christianty and one thousand scientific facts i could give you as to why i do not beleive or see any reason to beleive in "god", but it would be nice to have something or someone to believe in sometimes.